I've been M.I.A!

So I haven't blogged, mainly because absolutely nothing has happened to me! I'm boring. But tonight we got news... since it's not happening I guess I can talk about it now. There was rumor that my husband's ship would come back for a few weeks and then go back out to finish the deployment. And tonight we found out it's definitely not happening. I mean, there was a part of me that knew it wouldn't but that doesn't make it any less disappointing! Some days I feel really strong, but others I feel so weak like I can't do this without him. But I have to admit, I do have more stronger days than weak ones. I just can't imagine my life without him for so long. Ugh! I'm so done. He wants to make a career out of this but I can not do this my whole life! Ugh. I don't know... I'm just having one of those weak nights and I don't want to pitty myself anymore. I'm just going to throw myself into working out and losing all the weight I need to, and work! I might get a second job...

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